It's just a Tuesday night….another night alone. Tomorrow is just another Wednesday. The sun set tonight and will rise tomorrow… another day without you. They have gotten easier. I feel stronger. The sadness is still there. It fills my mind in quiet moments, makes my heart ache at "milestone" moments, makes me cry at unpredictable moments. Yet I am becoming more comfortable in my new normal. The memories remain strong, but the future finds its way to the forefront more and more every day. I sometimes long for help with the decisions for tomorrow, yet other times find a little joy in the thought that I can do what I feel is best and right… or simply what I want to do. As I continue to carve the path that is my future, my children's future, our daughters future, I know you are here with me step by step. I think perhaps I am walking a little more on my own now, without your help, but I know you are always watching over us. So as I gather things tonight, wrap presents, stuff stockings and have a silent toast to you…I miss you a little more on this not so ordinary Tuesday night. I love you, and I miss you… more and more every day. Merry Christmas my love.
Good night my friends.
