Bear Hugs

I miss him every day, but on bad days it seems worse.  I miss the good times and the playful kisses and affectionate hugs every day... But on a bad day when things don't go well at work, or something breaks around the house, or a tire goes flat, or I can't be there for one of the kids when I want to be, or I am tired from a long night at work and life won't stop for just a moment.... I miss his big bear hug.  He used to always remind me... "We've been through a lot and we'll get through this too."  He never made me feel weak or small in those moments.  Instead he'd say "Lean on me. That's what I'm here for." And as simple as that, I felt better.  I felt like I could get through whatever kind of a day it might be and whatever "tomorrow" brought my way.   It's this support and confidence in me that I have used every day since May 29th, 2012 to get up, get dressed and live the life that lies ahead.  But some days... I just want that bear hug... I just want to lean.   I miss you baby.  💔 goodnight my love, goodnight my friends.